reflections

I knew when I looked in his eyes
That he was gonna be trouble for me...

Walls...built strong to keep out, to protect.
Something so precious deep within,
Something so fragile, noone can be let in.

I took pieces of wood and I made this ladder,
I placed it against your wall just to look over.
The sight I saw mesmerised me into silence,
But a glimpse was all I got coz here I am falling.

I saw the reflection in the mirror and the eyes couldnt meet mine,
Theres a fear in the air that might dull the shine
I should walk away
But what is it about you that makes me stay

Here today, gone tomorrow,
all that will be left are memories and sorrow.
Hold on to the gift
before you know it, it will be gone, in a move that will be silent...and swift.

i love u i do

could it be? I think it could!
do u love me? I knew u would!
are u afraid? so am i
dont want to be away frm me? then why r u?

im sitting in the depth of a deep hole...looking up and seeing the stars in the black sky/
Im afraid of this silence and wat it holds for me..But those stars...they comfort me.
Its cold and Im tired, I just want to be free...
I shut my eyes and I see you looking at me.
Hold my hand its all i need
your love is precious...it frees me.

When Im with you..I see u...
in ways i could never tell u...
Trust me and we'll see the world in a different light,
Hold me and i promise i wont give you up without a fight

this is me now

how do i know this is love?
how do i know if he loves?
how do i know if i can trust?
how do i know i wont get hurt?

I guess I'll never know.

Thank you for this twisted knot in the pit of my stomach...
For showing me the highest highs and the lowest lows...
I'll be thinking about everything u said and everything you did and waiting to hear it and see it all over again...
For this increased heart rate everytime i see yr name on my phone
For this dereased heart rate everytime i dont
For this sweet pain
For this bittersweet longing for proximity..

Thank you...

So for now, I'll just wait, and feel the sweet pain you always seem to make me feel.